Day 9 - Have you Heard of a little thing called Dipsea?

So, last time, I got over the period hump. Yay. And even though I didn’t have the most magical experience, I kept the momentum going - which sometimes is what is required.

Which leads me to yesterday.

I’ve been having lots of feels this month. It’s dark out and chilly. I’m feeling the November comfort food pounds, and it’s been six months since I came back to work after maternity. I’m taking a minute to pause - slightly - and just reflect on all that has happened this year - as one does in the dark of December.

I’ve also been feeling grumpy.

Like - nearly threw a stage five tantrum at my husband because I found a poop covered reusable diaper in the laundry hamper with the clothes that he may or may not have left there grumpy. Actually, I’ve been freaking out a lot about the diapers lately - where they are, whether they have been washed, how many there are… I digress The point is I’ve been - I’ll be honest - a little on the bitchy side with my man. And that’s the little red flag. It took us a long time to figure it out - but when I get bitchy, unreasonably cold and weird with him - generally speaking - it is because we have not been intimate recently. Now the span between sexy times has changed. It used to be every three days. Today I could not tell you when we had sex last. I honestly can’t remember.

So, I took matters into my own hand, not because I was feeling super up for it, not because we had carved out special time to have sexy times together, but because it needed to be done. As my partner went off to do bedtime with the big kid, I let him know that I would be ready and waiting. With the little kid asleep I had some time to myself.

“Perfect, “ I thought. “I’ll do a little intentional session to get me warmed up.”.

So I meditated. And then I decided I needed a little help in the getting turned on department so I turned to this amazeballs app called Dipsea - it’s full of short, sexy, consensual stories to designed to get you turned on. It’s created by women, for women and it’s amazing.

I had sampled all the free stories but one so I clicked on the Solo Session and lo and behold I found a guided meditation for masturbation. WHAT?! Although I have to admit I’ve actually thought of recording one of these for you my lovely readers. So I was like HECK YES I AM TRYING THIS.

And it was lovely.

I spent ten minutes not making any decisions. 10 minutes being gently guided to touch different parts of my body and to explore my vulva and vagina in new ways. 10 minutes tuning in to my pleasure.

Just after I climaxed my man came into the bedroom - and with both kids snug in their beds and dead to the world - we made love in the dark.

That’s a day 9 win.

Catch you tomorrow.