Day 20 - A Giggly Vagina
Whoa how did two weeks go about since I last posted. Funny how time does that to you. Truth be told I got pulled into a end of year December dark feel sorry for myself pity party for the last few weeks. It’s been an interesting ride. And one that intentional masturbation is perfect for.
It seems a lot is coming up for me to process right now. I’m processing money, worthiness, my dreams, what really makes me happy and how I want to move forward into 2020. The perfect time to be connecting with my vagina and my intuition.
It’s been tough to hit my goal of 4 times a week and my meditation has slacked a bit but I did have some interesting explorations. So what have I noticed?
Well sometime last week I did a full session. It was pretty standard although I definitely noticed some interesting tenderness around my the entrance to my vagina. I spent a bit more time doing some yoni massage moves - I love giving my labia a stretch - you wouldn’t think this would feel fantastic - but it feels AMAZING. I tried to play around in the tender spots and breathe but nothing in the form of a release really came - which is how it happens sometimes. That being said it was very interesting to note that during this time that I have been feeling stress and allowing myself to sink and wallow a bit that pain and irritation surfaced in my beautiful vagina core. This is how our body shows us that things are emerging to be released.
I got even more feedback on this point a few nights ago when hubby and I made love. Once again I have no idea when we did it last - it’s been a while - and we had a free night with no big kid to entertain. It was a really strange experience - I giggle uncontrollably almost the entire time. Not because my husband was being funny or silly, not because I was feeling shy , but because my vagina was in a giggly mood for some reason. He went down on me and I was much more sensitive and responsive to touch than usual - a nice change. My giggly vagina soon changed her tune though when we moved to intercourse, there were many tender spots, deep and shallow, internal and external and we had a hard time finding the right position. Patience and a little humour helped us persevere and we were able to finish on a good note. My husband made some valiant attempts to invite me to breathe with him and use some our our Tantra tools together but I resisted so we forged on. Again my body was speaking to me - using humour to release but also letting me know there are deeper layers that need my attention.
I am ovulating and have noticed the random horny thoughts arise - which I always find hilarious. Today I masturbated, but in a - oh I’m ovulating and horny kinda way. So not my full practice.
Knowing what I’m processing and knowing what my body is asking to release I know it’s time to do a full vagina/pussy/yoni [insert your word of choice] massage healing process on myself. The ultimate in intentional masturbation.
I’m looking at my calendar now. I’m booking myself a date before Xmas Day.
Stay tuned.
Have you ever experienced this kind of sudden tenderness during sex? Maybe it wasn’t there last time but all of a sudden everything just feels sensitive and weird. It’s a thing. If you ever want to talk about it - hit me up girl.