Soo. Yesterday I kicked off 30 days of intentional masturbation and meditation as an experiment. To see what focusing my attention and intention on these two core practices would do for me. I have done this before and the results were awesome, and now, post kids, newly emerging into work and myself, it’s time to do it again.
So every day for the next month I will do an elemental meditation and I will aim for an intentional masturbation practice at least 4 times a week.
I got started last night with the house to myself. I had some enjoyable tub time. And I have to say, all night I was feeling low-key juiced up. To the point where - this morning, I my pussy asked if we could do another session this morning. At first I dismissed it. I was going to get some work done, or meditate, or eat breakfast. But when I got home after dropping the kids off my vagina was still whispering to me. She wasn’t like full on horny, she just said “let’s do it again”.
So we did.
I chose the bed this time. Set up my music. No candles. Did my meditation and dropped in.
Today I noticed a few things.
1) that same icky feet feeling was emerging. So instead of trying to avoid it, or move away from it, or tolerate it, I intentionally moved the energy up from my feet into the rest of my body. Anytime I felt my feet getting weird I imagined pulling that energy back up into my pelvis and into my core where I felt could handle it better.
It totally worked. Not only did I avoid that ickiness but I felt increased sensation and energy in my hips, and bum and entire pelvic region. Yummy.
2) It took a while to build things up this time. I felt like I was on an elusive edge for a while. I would feel close, but it just wouldn’t build, like the dial was stuck at 70 and couldn’t make it to 100. I noticed myself getting a little frustrated and leaning on some old tricks to get me going. When I did I leaned back, took a breath, let go, and just let it happen.
3) One thing I did to change things up was to try different fingers on my clitoris. Each finger on your hand is associated with a different energy and element that heals differently. I tend to use my middle finger (don’t know why), and when I switched it up to the index finger today I got a whole new experience. It was way easier to build the arousal and something about that finger felt healing. Sometimes we need different energies for different emotions. Switching up your fingers can help with this. I didn’t chant much or rely too heavily on my tantra practices.
I had a lovely orgasm to finish things off. No big release or emotions. I went into my day feeling good - not crazy peppy or anything, but not low either. Just a happy neutral.
I kicked butt today (and it’s not even over). Got a lot done. Felt good. Haven’t stuffed my face with shitty food. So I would say that is a win.
Tha’s day 2.
Talk to you tomorrow.
